“impossible”

are things really impossible or are we just giving excuses?

Ps: this is going to be a super random post. majority are rants.

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rants:

why are you not going to act so weird and try to be normal like you know you can?  your insercurities can never be occupied by the things you are doing now now matter how hard you try, watching each moment live by. why are you so cold hearted when you know that i love you? why are you so ungrateful? why dont you believe that i really love you? why you wanna abandon your so called family for someone who’s only aquainting? why do you want to be so harsh on yourself and dont know that this actually hurt people around you? why do you keep making trouble for me? cant you just sit down quietly and do your work? why dont you OPEN YOUR EYES and see my efforts and heart for you.. why dont you just be more active and less passive? why dont you just be more interested in my life? why dont you just stop praising yourself all the time? why dont you just do something about your situation? why dont you just help me help yourself? can you dont be so helpless?

in the midst of it all, the blame is never on me while i rant. but rather, the truth is im feeling this way bcos i’ve put the blame on others and not myself. though for some i am not fully to blame because there are too much factors involved. but when i see that  my thinking changes, and the impossible gradually becomes POSSIBLE.

via Visualisation.

Loyalty.

CGM on Friday was totally awesome! Gid preached a word that everyone needs to hear: Hearing the word of God.

For us to see God’s glory, the timing is in the hands of God. And sometimes i just wonder when God takes a step back – He is actually waiting for me to catch up with Him. The feeling of not being able to catch up simply irritates me. Lethargic = in my mobile dictionary it explains that it means lacking of interest or energy. And i guess, the first will lead to the second. Hence, I REBUKE EVERY SINGLE LETHARGY in my life! Get out! and GET LOST!

A good question raised in the meeting. Am i existing or am i living?

And it is so true, the thing that can change my situation is not men’s comfort, but by hearing the Word of God.

Friends may comfort us, encourage us, hugg us, and even advice us. But seriously, its usually when God speaks and comes into the picture, then things change. Not that the companion of friends are bad, in fact friends are extremely important because human are not meant to be made alone. That is why in the Garden of Eden, God gave Adam, Eve. But sometimes i wonder, its not bad listening to the voices of men(human) too, learning from the experiences people had, and being wiser while making choices in life. But my point is, my circumstance, or your cirumstance wont change even if i comfort you or you comfort me.

Genuine Love is built on a convenant that never says goodbye.

I remember when i was lost, i am always found either by God or someone or somehow my heart spoke to me.

I was really anguish when i spoke to a friend one day about having the power to make choices. Often, how many choices we make are the decisions that will benefit us? But yet, His ways are alway higher than mine.  

= wherever you go, i’ll follow. whatever you’re focused on, i’ll be also. whoever you be with, i’ll be with. your vision is my vision. till death do us part. i dont want to walk behind you, i want to walk ahead of you so that i can protect you.

my love will get you home.

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there’s only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

forgiveness.

forgive me, for i am just like a normal human being like you.
whatever you’re seaching for, i am looking for.
whatever you’ve been struggling with, i am also.
the difference is, i choose to… or rather i try to still have some strength and determination to hold on to the promises said to me.
bcos i know that the expiry date just isnt up yet.
God isnt done with me yet.

The price He has paid, as compared to what i can give back to Him..
i dont know. i can never pay back this entire life.

so Jesus, You take me close to Your side
give me faith and look into my eyes
thru the eyes of faith you saw in me
for a greater somebody i am worthy to be.

bcos You held on to me,
there is still a reason to live.

You Act Like You Are 24 Years Old

You are a twenty-something at heart. You feel like an adult, and you’re optimistic about life. You feel excited about what’s to come… love, work, and new experiences. You’re still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can’t wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

Blogthings: 100’s of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

You are Extroverted, Agreeable, Neurotic and Open

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you’re the first to say “let’s go”! Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don’t take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it’s difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don’t mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You’re generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there’s a few emotional bumps you’d like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You’ll try almost anything interesting, and you’re constantly pushing your own limits. A great admirer of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Philosophy, religion, science

There Are 3 Gaps in Your Knowledge

Where you have gaps in your knowledge: Philosophy Religion Science Where you don’t have gaps in your knowledge: Economics Literature History Art

Do You Have Gaps in Your Knowledge?

Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

old records.

often, we listen to plenty and plenty of songs. but there’re just some songs that will stay there in ur heart, like forever?

bcos, at that moment in time, ur story connected with its tale, out of it flows an episode. 新歌听多了，总觉得有些老歌真的让人感觉很棒。

正在寻找一个有家的感觉的感觉。

confessions of a learniholic

i get hyped up whenever i felt that i’ve gained or learned something or have seen something in a different light;

contact time was cancelled, hence i used that precious one hour to sort out the titles in the library – nothing hard. just a glimpse of dizziness after sorting over hundereds of books! (this is what happens when you’re a teacher.. -> you ought to do tasks which are beyond your teaching job, and you are labelled “normal”. if you do less, you’ll be degraded or not considered for promotion. awww…) and indeed, i managed to complete what i ought to do for the past 6 weeks in that one hour. therefore, lesson learnt: the power of Focus.

2pm-4pm was awesome. huishan our school counsellor gave us a sharing session on understanding Student’s Mental Health. It started with a short game of fitting some facts and myths about mental problems. e.g. mental problems is common is singapore. Myth or Fact? it is a Fact and 1 out of 6 people in Singapore might have experienced a mental problem or breakdown before. though tired,but i really gained from this talk. and many things which it spoke of, having a healthy self-estem, love for others and the need to be loved, communication…being well physically.. yada, are all very practical issues that whizzes pass us now and then. was facinated and entertained by the video showed  as well – how a young teenager was suffering from depression, hearing voices telling him what and how to rule his life when they are simply his “imaginary friends”. i finally got the idea of what that term meant as evidently showed in the video. and how seeking help immediately really helps! and my jaws dropped when i saw that only 37% of Singaporeans would respond to seek help for Mental problems only when their conditions turns serious. HOW CAN??!!!!  tsk tsk tsk.. may i not be the remaining 63% man( choy!!) . Lesson learnt: always talk to someone when you have problems! dont be EMO and be ALONE.

hmmm, wednesday is practicall a happy day!

Thank God for happiness!

ps: Randomly thinking about how good would it be to have someone good at admin by my side..

change.

Dr Ed Louis Cole mentioned before that the only constant in life is change, and it is something that different people will take it differently. Some take it well, like Obama, strongly convicted to his belief of ” Yes, we can.” while some, when their natural living conditions has been changed by a natural disaster has to learn to pick up the pieces and live the best out of it.

Seasons change, Things change, People change.  I change.

Awkwardly, i aint too sure when and where i picked up the love for reading books. Always devoted to only mags and blogs, books (unless self-help  books like big preacher series, would be my cup of tea then). Nonetheless, i am pleasantly surprised with this change. Reading an episode of Jane Green’s currrently, and planning to read Totto Chan next. It all came about today while i was invilgilating a P6 Higher MT class, and i was reading that class’ notice board, and this title caught my eye. i read the reviews written by the students, hence drawing my interest into reading it.

also, i briefly enquired about enrolling into UniSim’s BA in Communications course. (Part time studying!! YAY!! ) Still awaiting for a reply from a friend if this course is recommended by MOE. if i were to sidetrack, this is something i REALLY WANT now apart from Jesus; an opportunity to elevate myself in education and in PAY hahahah.. what else! (practical hur!) and also an opportunity to be able to do Radio and Media, my passion. Hopefully it wouldnt be too late for me!

Also decided to continue with Sherlyn’s Vocal class Part 3, cos since it is my craft that God has given me, i might as well do something to it and upgrade it. It definately can come into good use when i need.

Toby, the wandering dog is also found!

Conclusion, what a great Monday!

Craving for yoghurty stuffs now~~ :S weird craving.