is it really true that when we get older we are more set in our ways?
if that is, i really hope i wont become someone rigid in my thinking, always choosing to do something that is ’safe’ or simply scratching the surface.

working with certain people in my life has made me see the difference in the working styles and attitude of peple. and sometimes, though unable to agree or comprehend with their way of doing things, a compromise has to step in for peace and harmony’s sake. hence, i know these arent the people whom i want to learn from.

in fact, there is never an ideal group or person to look up to. most of the time, i learn the most from the least, say my students. because with them, i’ve learnt to be  more understanding and accomodating, and you feel that you dont have to ”gay gao” for everything. though sometimes their ways are harder to tolerate, they taught me patience.

i look up to people who are senior in authority, but always setting a good example for the rest to follow, but never have airs or crash their authority on others. my ideal learning experience is one whom speak, yet listen more, assigned a task but shows you how-to-do-it more. these what i consider cool, and attracts me to learn from them, and ultimatelyt being inspired to be like them.

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brushing that aside, i am really sleepy.. going to punggol meetoh schol for an event later from 3-5pm.. zzzzzz wo yao hui jia..

Looking forward for CG!

often this is what we think of or have experienced ourselves…

but this is what God thinks of us…

Beloved Child.

Faithful Steward.

Giant-Slayer.

Overcomer.

Good Finisher.

“Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life,and I will live in the house of the Lordforever.” ps 23:6 nlt

All Eternity Awaits
© 2008 Dan Korocz, Matt Hawkins

Today I pick up my cross
And cast distractions aside
No compromise in my heart
Call me a child of God
For I have counted the cost
My soul set free with a price
This is the truth behind our existence all eternity awaits
I found my purpose in Jesus Christ in offering my life

Created for this one thing
To be a servant of all
I give my life to this cause
To see Your mercy poured out
And see the lost return home
Your life made way for it all

Above my circumstance it’s You I worship
My life surrendered in the mercy of Your love
Nothing can be compared to this I now know
You spoke the universe into existence

Young people searching the earth
In all the ways of this world
One thing that I know is this

Trying to walk in faith without love is like having a flashlight with no battery.

哈哈哈，张芸京超爆笑的！

after running the high fever of 39degrees ytd i made myself slept thru 6 hrs, despite the 4 intervals of visiting toilets(cos i drank alot of water).. i recovered! but my knee.. has been giving me problems.. on the right, when i try to lift it slightly more than 45degs, it hurts and the whole calve and knee aches. i wonder what could the prob be.. could it be due to bad elvation of my high heels or my shoes that are too flat which doesnt give me comfort at all as well..?

im not sure about you. to me, as long as i have shoes, and they can we worn and i look good, comfort is secondary. once smsed a considerably good friend if i shld purchase a pair of stunning heels just bcos i liked it,  but… the down side is.. it causes me dizziness. yet he told me to be more practical.

so here i am, 一边blog一边massaging my knee.. wondering if i should go and get a pair of new shoes.. maybe i just shld just go ahead lah hor? perhaps get a comfy one and just look shorter for these 2 weeks.. perhaps somepeople cld laugh at the triviality of the things i blog, but as long as it matters to me.. its not trival! =x

(mum just complained to me of the hot weather as she walks pass me into the room)

yeah, so true. the weather is horribly killing and hot! i could possibly serve you ya-kun half boiled eggs under this kind of weather. perhaps it is why i got my 39degs fever! – ok lah ok lah, dont blame weather, blame myself for not taking good care.. -

这个星期，我明白到了不是每个人都可以我行我素的。有的人可以，有的人就是不行。我从前可以，但现今当然属于第二者。

我行我素的时代已过，只有仔细观察、细心听从、不停反思、无懈分析，在所之上，拥有一颗单纯的虚心才能让我把这段路走的更好。

我无时担忧，毫无规矩，渴望自由的自己，要如何把自己放在一个框框里头？

一口说要定下，一口嘴硬不要被绑。一口说没有，一口又说另一套。

女人心，真难以捉摸。

有时，我真讨厌做女人; 因为太多问题、问题太多、问太多题、提问太多。。。

但是抱歉。谁叫我是女人！

perhaps its time you do something for yourself today?

when the words of others fail to encourage you, you fight on and encourage yourself. ultimately, u move on by ur own decision and not by the will of others or relying on the comfort of others.

its so easy to say that words that people say have no effect on us, bcos we have chose to see the problem in a bigger view. but when we see US, being GIANTS overcoming it all, then we know that WE are in CONTROL, and ultimately GOD is in CONTROL. Would He allow us to be tempted beyond what we can handle?

Sometimes, being wrapped in the worries of  life, we often forgot about our Authority in Christ, which is to conquer and to overcome. 

and when the going gets tough, you get tougher!!!

just wondering why i am still in my office at 7.05pm..

was counselling a boy from my class over some matters. he just throwed tantrums as usual, and i confronted him gently of why isnt he doing the word assigned.. and he suddenly cried and told me about he unhappiness he had. it was a precious moment we shared, and i thank God for that open heart of my student. He kept thinking that teachers are all out to make the life of a student suffer and im glad i managed to explain to him that that was never my intention. gave him loads of encouragement bcos he thinks that being the last to go home means that he is lousy and a loser.. silly boy.. then that wldnt make all teachers lousy since we’re always the last to leave the class? i questioned him. thank God that brought a smile to his face.

remedial was hectic bcos i made a few P5s stay back with in my P4 class to do corrections. a handful bunch of monkeys trying to play hide and seek with me.. but i ran after the guy and i managed to get him. heh heh, xian lao shi  is YOUNG afterall~!!  :P and pls lah… their pattern… all i use before when i was young. indeed… the law of sowing and reaping -________-’ ‘ ‘  

wont be seeing the kids for a wholesome of 4days from weds, thurs,fri & also monday… feeling insecure cuz its near their exams. and insecure cos a relief teacher is taking over my class. even though he/she may be more experienced than i am, but i still feel weird allowing someone else to take over my class for me. i’ll miss my 3B and 4E~! ) and thank God for relief for 5F!   byebye 5F!!

had a weird nightmare last night and it links to my stress over the kids exams.. why has the kids exams got to do with me? i was overly worried that their grades would drop bcos of a amateur teacher, but gid said that i need to realax and just as long as i give my best, i shldnt worry. SO I SHLDNT!

many times i told people to relax and give their best. and i guess i cld understand how it feels. even though knowing that the fears and anxiety wldnt go away in a day or 2, prayer and supplication is all i need now.

lift them up! lift them all up to the LORD!!!!  

its a quickie but rahther lengthy post this time. hais, teacher are often naggy!! NO CHOICE ~ students made us this way cos they always need to be reminded.  :( boo hoo!!

“you’ll never walk alone… “

yet i felt so alone.

You kept all my teardrops and shed them like Yours.

You felt all my grief on Calvary’s hill

Your heart was so broken, now i can be healed.

ultimately, i still need to walk alone.

雨，不停落下来
花，怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀
爱，只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
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