life is not just all about me.
what about me affects others as well.
i am reminded that whatever i do, i need to think of the consequences.
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i have 1 month left to fulfil my goal. 
jiayou!
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actually i really hope to see you laugh that hard once again.
having an altar of placing hopes on human w0nt work out, but human need the support of human at times… being too supportive would become soulish… so what is it??!
didnt i know that my own needs will be met thru giving? yes…..
was doing a quiz on fb.
it asked how can i relate to life.
1) A Mountain Climb? – ever ascending route till you get to the top.
2) A Classroom? – there’s always new lessons in life to learn.
3) A Building? – it goes from layers to layers, but must have a solid foundation.
4) A Battery? – weekdays are draining enough. i simply just need my weekend break!
i’ve been thru or am still going thru life as it is from options 1-4. and as i witness how some of my friends enter their adulthood(21 yrs), how some of them enter the workforce together with me.. it just sets me thinking that i cant view life the way i want it as before.
whilst still a student, you have “backings” for you. but when you really are a student no more, you need to provide the “backings’ for others. for some people, this may start right after their secondary education or poly education, but for some it will come only after they have reached their mid-twenties.
imagine ur parents who once were ur main providence suddenly come to you and tell you, ” hey, i’ll be depending on you from now on”. but iam glad to have parents whom tried to train me to be independent since i was young.
flashbacks then came which showed me of how in the younger days i would promise them i’d take good care of them when they grow old. and it is true that my parents are growing older than i think that they are. 好比有一股天经地义的责任感降落到我肩膀一般。im feeling the same way i do when i was 16 – entering a whole new phase of life. 5 years have passed since then. and i need to give my life back to the education sector that has brought me up thus far, not sure if i will continue, but i will serve my best these 5 years & enjoy my job to the fullest. bcos we always do what we enjoy best.
whatever is my need, i know that it will be met thru serving.
so, take my hand and lead me on Lord.
i really believe everything will change for this cant be forever.
You gave my soul a song to sing.
it feels good to sing cos my soul longs and yearns for You God.
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Church has been singing the Deeper in love song for CWBS today, and its no new song to me cos while i was away in China for that 4 and a half months i sang that song in chinese in my illegal cg meetings there. fyi, my cgl in china came for Asia Conf last yr and we met up!
as we sang that song in eng, perhaps due to the familar melody… i got recalled of many flashbacks during my study in china. where i wld just try my best to find private space to be with God. I would blast worship songs and lie on the tack and field grass in the middle of the night and sing worship songs… or i wld freeze myself to death praying outside the balcony to God during zero degrees in order not to disturb my roomies. Missing the church in Singapore like crazy.. trying my best to msn the cg cos internet access will cut off after 11pm.. great memories really.
深深爱你
我生命中最渴望的一件事
切慕你，单单寻求你
用我全心全意，用我全力爱你
敬拜你让你荣耀充满全地
深深爱你 耶稣
深深爱你 耶稣
我爱你超越生命中一切
深深爱你 耶稣
深深爱你 耶稣
哦 我爱你 耶稣
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一生奉献，一生不回头
一生爱你，跟随你。
we all dont like to wait, dont we?
Yet in everything, we have to.
Waiting produces patience, and i guess its the only beautiful thing i see in it.
For everything, there is a season.
A season to sow, a season to plough.
A season to laugh, a season to tear.
A season to mould, and a season to shine.
A season to wait, and a season to Reflect.
im taking a step back to be practical. see the picuture, if it ever will complete..
When Ive shown you that I just dont care
When Im throwing punches in the air
When Im broken down and I cant stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?
-sheryl crow
for the imperfections i have, mistakes are inevitably made time to time..
at the meeting today, i told God to change me & mould me into someone He wants me to be and that i can be true to Him.
Lord, break my heart for what breaks Yours I pray..
For You will not test me beyond what i can take.
Tonight we remember
The times that we spent here
The joy and the laughter that we had
Tonight we cherish
The moment spent together
Because it’s the only time we have.
Look at us,
And see our smiles
This is where we all belong
I remember the times we spent together
Until my last December
Tonight…
