is it really true that when we get older we are more set in our ways?
if that is, i really hope i wont become someone rigid in my thinking, always choosing to do something that is ’safe’ or simply scratching the surface.
working with certain people in my life has made me see the difference in the working styles and attitude of peple. and sometimes, though unable to agree or comprehend with their way of doing things, a compromise has to step in for peace and harmony’s sake. hence, i know these arent the people whom i want to learn from.
in fact, there is never an ideal group or person to look up to. most of the time, i learn the most from the least, say my students. because with them, i’ve learnt to be more understanding and accomodating, and you feel that you dont have to ”gay gao” for everything. though sometimes their ways are harder to tolerate, they taught me patience.
i look up to people who are senior in authority, but always setting a good example for the rest to follow, but never have airs or crash their authority on others. my ideal learning experience is one whom speak, yet listen more, assigned a task but shows you how-to-do-it more. these what i consider cool, and attracts me to learn from them, and ultimatelyt being inspired to be like them.
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brushing that aside, i am really sleepy.. going to punggol meetoh schol for an event later from 3-5pm.. zzzzzz wo yao hui jia..
Today I pick up my cross
And cast distractions aside
No compromise in my heart
Call me a child of God
For I have counted the cost
My soul set free with a price
This is the truth behind our existence all eternity awaits
I found my purpose in Jesus Christ in offering my life
Created for this one thing
To be a servant of all
I give my life to this cause
To see Your mercy poured out
And see the lost return home
Your life made way for it all
Above my circumstance it’s You I worship
My life surrendered in the mercy of Your love
Nothing can be compared to this I now know
You spoke the universe into existence
Young people searching the earth
In all the ways of this world
One thing that I know is this
after running the high fever of 39degrees ytd i made myself slept thru 6 hrs, despite the 4 intervals of visiting toilets(cos i drank alot of water).. i recovered! but my knee.. has been giving me problems.. on the right, when i try to lift it slightly more than 45degs, it hurts and the whole calve and knee aches. i wonder what could the prob be.. could it be due to bad elvation of my high heels or my shoes that are too flat which doesnt give me comfort at all as well..?
im not sure about you. to me, as long as i have shoes, and they can we worn and i look good, comfort is secondary. once smsed a considerably good friend if i shld purchase a pair of stunning heels just bcos i liked it, but… the down side is.. it causes me dizziness. yet he told me to be more practical.
so here i am, 一边blog一边massaging my knee.. wondering if i should go and get a pair of new shoes.. maybe i just shld just go ahead lah hor? perhaps get a comfy one and just look shorter for these 2 weeks.. perhaps somepeople cld laugh at the triviality of the things i blog, but as long as it matters to me.. its not trival! =x
(mum just complained to me of the hot weather as she walks pass me into the room)
yeah, so true. the weather is horribly killing and hot! i could possibly serve you ya-kun half boiled eggs under this kind of weather. perhaps it is why i got my 39degs fever! – ok lah ok lah, dont blame weather, blame myself for not taking good care.. -
perhaps its time you do something for yourself today?
when the words of others fail to encourage you, you fight on and encourage yourself. ultimately, u move on by ur own decision and not by the will of others or relying on the comfort of others.
its so easy to say that words that people say have no effect on us, bcos we have chose to see the problem in a bigger view. but when we see US, being GIANTS overcoming it all, then we know that WE are in CONTROL, and ultimately GOD is in CONTROL. Would He allow us to be tempted beyond what we can handle?
Sometimes, being wrapped in the worries of life, we often forgot about our Authority in Christ, which is to conquer and to overcome.
just wondering why i am still in my office at 7.05pm..
was counselling a boy from my class over some matters. he just throwed tantrums as usual, and i confronted him gently of why isnt he doing the word assigned.. and he suddenly cried and told me about he unhappiness he had. it was a precious moment we shared, and i thank God for that open heart of my student. He kept thinking that teachers are all out to make the life of a student suffer and im glad i managed to explain to him that that was never my intention. gave him loads of encouragement bcos he thinks that being the last to go home means that he is lousy and a loser.. silly boy.. then that wldnt make all teachers lousy since we’re always the last to leave the class? i questioned him. thank God that brought a smile to his face.
remedial was hectic bcos i made a few P5s stay back with in my P4 class to do corrections. a handful bunch of monkeys trying to play hide and seek with me.. but i ran after the guy and i managed to get him. heh heh, xian lao shi is YOUNG afterall~!! :P and pls lah… their pattern… all i use before when i was young. indeed… the law of sowing and reaping -________-’ ‘ ‘
wont be seeing the kids for a wholesome of 4days from weds, thurs,fri & also monday… feeling insecure cuz its near their exams. and insecure cos a relief teacher is taking over my class. even though he/she may be more experienced than i am, but i still feel weird allowing someone else to take over my class for me. i’ll miss my 3B and 4E~! ) and thank God for relief for 5F! byebye 5F!!
had a weird nightmare last night and it links to my stress over the kids exams.. why has the kids exams got to do with me? i was overly worried that their grades would drop bcos of a amateur teacher, but gid said that i need to realax and just as long as i give my best, i shldnt worry. SO I SHLDNT!
many times i told people to relax and give their best. and i guess i cld understand how it feels. even though knowing that the fears and anxiety wldnt go away in a day or 2, prayer and supplication is all i need now.
lift them up! lift them all up to the LORD!!!!
its a quickie but rahther lengthy post this time. hais, teacher are often naggy!! NO CHOICE ~ students made us this way cos they always need to be reminded. :( boo hoo!!
i’ll miss my 3B and 4E~! ) and thank God for relief for 5F! 
byebye 5F!!